The top of my spinal cord
The bottom of my brain
I am most present and happy not in the fertility rites but in the early summer rain and cold; not in the harvest but in the dying, colored autumn beyond
I am most present and happy in genial collegiality, not in swagger and stamp
*Or maybe it developed fine, (and the stuttering was a different thing – the ear infections, maybe) – but was then malformed from anxiety, depression, and bad posture from divorce and adolescence and after
Steven Pavlos Holmes, Ph.D. 