Steven Pavlos Holmes, Ph.D.

I’ve had, and am still having, a beautiful and interesting life, with myself in an overall positive and helpful role A life to be glad for

Including evolution and biology of the erotic, Ethologies of Eros, religious erotica (or the religious erotic), the Ages of Eurotica, history of Anglo-American erotica and erotics, comparative eroticas (e.g. South Asia, Indian influence on early high British erotica and erotic consciousness, etc)

Which results in, living nowhere. I have been that way ever since moving to Minnesota, and in important ways before that – from premature birth to stuttering to family troubles even before Fred left and Granpa died and Mom retreated, all of which went into shaping the apocalypse that was Minnesota, itself a process over … More This isn’t my world. I don’t want to live here. I refuse living here.

But it’s an open question What could I do? My capacities in the world, and in myself What should I do? What will I do

Be of good cheer, is still what comes to the surface first Be of good cheer Prepare a face to meet the faces that you meet From the mother onward – from your first glimpse of yourself reflected in your parents eyes – and even more, your own love for your parents’ faces, and your … More Which still just asks me, What will I choose FOR?

Been there, done that I’ve been living the truth of the moment long enough that it’s become mundane – who gives a shit Is that all there is, my friend?

A description of a fictionalized, or rather third-person, scholar/writer/intellectual’s actual physical studies/offices, and how they worked and what they meant to him – and of the intellectual studies that he conceived in those places, both completed works and current work in progress, and germ-ideas for future books or projects