Steven Pavlos Holmes, Ph.D.

Live every day with your god – or mana, or the Dreamtime, or the ancestors, or Tengrin

And since then, perhaps a result of it but physiopsychically distinct, the additional burden of regular overwhelms of adrenaline or whatever during episodes of stuttering fear And more than adrenaline – the feeling of being blocked off from others, not able to be in relationship, or rather to be together – existential dread

Theses? Koans? Thought-poems Glosses? Pensées? Meditations? Koans? Precepts? Principia? Thought-poems So, maybe – Precepts and Pensées: Thought-poems (Maybe a few different genres, depending on content, and overall flow and trajectory – why not?)

Born in an individual of culture-fed imagination, they achieve maturity and success in the shaping and strengthening of that life And you can therefore gain more insight into what the character and content of that commitment or devotion is, by observing the contours of the life which it has reshaped ~~~~~~~~ Like for example Shinwell … More Commitment and devotion depend on having a whole life that supports them

And that is Tengrin

* * * * * But I’ve been going down rabbit-holes my whole life, it’s what I’m good at – what else can I do? Or maybe Tengrinism is in fact something real, and devoting myself to it is something else I can do – and have been doing all along, and am now, in … More Avoid the rabbit-hole of Tengrinism

6/17/25: Feeling a similar pattern of pain in legs after starting Zetia – muscle aches and stiffness in groin, thighs, and calves, while joints seem fine; tendons in same state as since last time, don’t feel any worse since Zetia but still pretty significant. I’m wondering if this isn’t an effect of the drugs in … More Cholesterall

Being in your own head, and out of it, itself requires and brings about special needs