Steven Pavlos Holmes, Ph.D.

And few have ever included any sense of continuity with any words beyond the home – social or professional or historical or whatever Except for the world of ideas, academia, school – where I only ever felt myself a student, never an authority or teacher or guide or other power Always receptive and evaluating, never … More For me, the feelings of reality and aliveness have only emerged from a sense of being at home, actually in a physical home

A person or group toward you A person or community for you Which then suggests a correlate challenge, What do we do in times of aloneness, when there is no other? Or of dampened existence, when there are at least others, but with varying degrees of aliveness, awareness, engagement, or interest in you?

Live every day with your god – or mana, or the Dreamtime, or the ancestors, or Tengrin

And since then, perhaps a result of it but physiopsychically distinct, the additional burden of regular overwhelms of adrenaline or whatever during episodes of stuttering fear And more than adrenaline – the feeling of being blocked off from others, not able to be in relationship, or rather to be together – existential dread

Theses? Koans? Thought-poems Glosses? Pensées? Meditations? Koans? Precepts? Principia? Thought-poems So, maybe – Precepts and Pensées: Thought-poems (Maybe a few different genres, depending on content, and overall flow and trajectory – why not?)

Born in an individual of culture-fed imagination, they achieve maturity and success in the shaping and strengthening of that life And you can therefore gain more insight into what the character and content of that commitment or devotion is, by observing the contours of the life which it has reshaped ~~~~~~~~ Like for example Shinwell … More Commitment and devotion depend on having a whole life that supports them

And that is Tengrin

* * * * * But I’ve been going down rabbit-holes my whole life, it’s what I’m good at – what else can I do? Or maybe Tengrinism is in fact something real, and devoting myself to it is something else I can do – and have been doing all along, and am now, in … More Avoid the rabbit-hole of Tengrinism